I had the strange experience the other day of accessing my primary care doctor’s patient portal online. I kind of love these portals because it’s access to your own little world in a nutshell. But it’s also a little weird. I remember back in January getting an email telling me how to set up access, but with everything that was going on at the time, I never followed through. When I set up my account, I was surprised to find that I could click on all sorts of information, including the notes sent to my GP by most of the specialists I’ve seen in the last year.
Here’s the weird part: As I read through the notes sent to her by my oncologist, I was kind of shocked to see that he defined me as a “former smoker” (not true) and had my occupation listed as “auditor and accountant.” Another note from my previous oncologist makes reference to my sister having a history of breast cancer (again, not true). I know I shouldn’t get hung up on this stuff, but it kind of bugs me.
I accessed the portal because I went for a chest x-ray on Monday and I was hoping the results would be posted. They weren’t. But I did finally hear from my doctor last night. The good news is that I don’t have pneumonia. The not so good news is that they “see something” on the x-ray that looks like a small mass. Dr. M, my GP, was quick to say that it is most likely tied to my surgery. Possibly scar tissue. But she also said I have to follow up, and that means a CT scan. Dr. M is going to speak with my breast surgeon today to try to get a better understanding of the scans and x-rays I had before my surgery, but in the end, I’m sure they will both err on the side of caution.
In my logical brain, I know I have nothing to worry about. But in my fucked up brain, I’m sure the cancer has come back.
By the way, I may not have pneumonia, but I’m still coughing.